Episode 3: Maybe I'm The Only One Feeling This

I hate how much power one text message has over me now. Every time my phone lights up, I check it instantly! And every time it’s not him… I feel stupid for caring.

Last night was different, or maybe I just saw things differently. Because the way he held me, the way he looked at me, the way he kept pulling me closer… it didn’t feel casual, not to me.

So I asked the question I probably should’ve kept to myself. “What are we actually doing?”

Silence.

Jay looked at me for a second before laughing softly. “Why are you making it deep?” That hurt more than I expected. I tried to laugh it off too, but suddenly I felt embarrassed. Like I was the only one who forgot this was supposed to mean nothing.

“Relax,” he said. “We’re just having fun.” Just having fun.

Funny how something can feel so real to one person… and mean absolutely nothing to the other. The worst part is… I think I already knew the answer before I asked, and maybe that’s why it hurt so much.

Because deep down, I’m starting to realise I’m not okay with being “just fun” anymore.

Episode 4 coming soon...